“Do Not Take Counsel of Your Fears” – General Barry McCaffrey
This quote from, “Meditations from the Mat,” resonates in a deep place within me. Having just completed my fifth step this past Friday the pattern that emerged following all of that soul-searching hard work was that I have operated my entire life out of my fears, more specifically my insecurities.
A definition of “insecurity” from Dictionary.com:
1.lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt.
My fears and insecurities have been my closest advisors for decades and their place in my mind has been one of complete freedom to do whatever they want and to morph into whatever they feel like. I have granted them permission to run wild within my heart resulting in my emotions, words, and actions following along like crazy zealots.
Enough. I have fired them and let them know their services are no longer necessary. I recognize that I will have to do this over and over and over again – multiple times daily – for the rest of my ever-loving life but that is okay. My goal is to know when it is fear talking and taking over my thoughts, emotions, words and actions and instead of taking counsel from them — do something different. Such as gathering courage despite my fears and to move in a courageous direction rather than a fearful reaction.
For me, it all begins with an awareness – “Oh hello fear – you are familiar now that I am NOTICING you. You need to leave now – I am doing something different these days – thanks though…” An unwelcome guest quickly leaves. And for that I am grateful.